Crafter’s Guilt

Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about why I often downplay my skills and accomplishments to others. I’m afflicted with what I call Crafter’s Guilt where my excitement over something I’ve made is dampened by feeling sort of uncomfortable or guilty for doing a good job. I can’t be the only one who feels like this, right?

My wonderful husband pointed it out when he kindly suggested that when people ask me how Little Red Window Design is going, that perhaps I should replace my stock answer of, “Oh, it’s going ok, I guess. Kinda slow but it’s picking up…” with something more along the lines of, “Well, actually it’s going pretty well, I’m making regular sales and getting requests for custom work as well!” which in reality, is much closer to the truth. I mean, I’m certainly nowhere near financially supporting myself like I did with an office job, but I’ve exceeded my (admittedly meager) goals and expectations so far, so why is it difficult to tell other people that?

I notice myself doing this also when I give people handmade gifts or when I show up at a party with baked goods. Because oddly, one of the most common remarks people make, after telling me that they love it, is, in one form or another a statement like, “wow, you make me feel like such a slouch for not making handmade things or throwing a party with diy decorations.” I’ve heard that so many times that I think I’ve absorbed it and started to feel kind of guilty for that. Of course that is not my intention!

Instead of beating myself up about it, lately I’ve been thinking about why other people might feel that way. Is it because we live in this internet world with Pinterest and Facebook where we all post only the best most awesome parts of our lives and so, in a way, maybe even unconsciously we always feel like we’re in competition with everyone else? Is it because, as women, we are told that we should be able to “have it all”. We should be an amazing parent who bakes homemade bread and throws fabulous parties, uses cloth diapers and has not only a successful career, but a fulfilling one! Because really, that is a completely unrealistic expectation.

I’m sure that all has something to do with it. But when someone jokingly says my creations make them feel bad, I wish I could tell them, yes, my house might look pretty organized, but I have a secret room that’s supposed to be my office but it’s really where we throw all of our clutter. I wish I could tell them, yes, I may have baked cute little cupcakes from scratch for this party but my preschooler and I ate frozen pizza three nights this week while my husband worked late…and oh yeah, I haven’t cleaned the bathroom in way longer than I’d like to admit. I’m not perfect and neither are you! We all just have different skills and passions and this is mine. I’m really good at making things just like YOU are really good at running or playing an instrument or being a teacher or a doctor.

But more than anything I wish I could explain in a way that people really really understood, why I create. I don’t do it to have the “perfect” gift for someone. I don’t do it to have a “perfect” party that’s better than someone else’s party. I don’t do it to be somehow “better” than anyone else.

And because that’s how I am, in NO WAY does that make me better than anyone else. If you ordered a friend pizza after their new baby came, or bought your mom a scarf for Christmas instead of knitting one, I have no doubt that you care about them just as much as I do. If you bought your kid’s party supplies at Target, no one’s going to have any less fun at the party or feel any less loved.

I create because I like to challenge myself and see what I can accomplish. I create because I’m interested in how things work and are made and designed. I create because I am picky and I want things just so. I create because I am cheap and I want to see if I can do it for less. I create because I truly enjoy it.

I honestly like planning parties, I like painting furniture, I like knitting and sewing. I even actually like cooking most of the time (cleaning up afterwards, not so much). And sure I could buy a new dresser instead of handpainting one, but that wouldn’t be as much fun for me. If I don’t have a project, I literally get twitchy and anxious. I can’t just sit and watch tv, I have to have my hands busy. And if I go too long without making something, I start to feel depressed.

Really what it all comes down to is that I create because, to me, it’s as imperative as breathing. It is part of me and I just can’t not do it.

So I think the next time I give someone a handmade gift and they say that it’s great, instead of shrugging it off as no big deal or pointing out a tiny flaw so that I don’t make anyone feel bad, I’m just going to say, “Thank you, I think it turned out great too!”

Etsy Finds no 11. – Accessories

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Old McDonald’s Farm Felt Board

11 / 4 / 1310 / 3 / 14

I had so much fun making the Apple Tree Felt Board for O (and I may or may not have had a mountain of extra felt leftover, I plead the 5th!) that I thought I’d make another. This time I went with a Farm theme because, at the time, he didn’t really have any farm themed toys and I love to at least try to come up with gender neutral play ideas. Anything to get away from trucks and trains ALL. THE. TIME!

But that’s beside the point, the idea is the same, cover a foam board with felt and then make cute little felt shapes that stick to the board through the magic of friction! And like last time, the only supplies you really need are the foam board, felt, good sharp scissors and glue or a hot glue gun. He’s had this for about a year now, the animals are regularly stepped on, thrown around, shoved in random small places and they are still in good shape. I used hot glue and none of the pieces have come off or anything. So yay for cheapie recycled plastic “felt” from the craft store!

Anyway, here’s the Farm:

The Barn and the Pond are both glued to the background. I thought about leaving them separate but that seemed like too many pieces.

After that it needed a happy yellow sun and of course, a fence, to keep the animals in:

But wait, is there someone in the Barn??

Oink, oink!! Then of course, the Pig was lonely, so he needed some barnyard friends:

A horse…

And a cow, sheep and duck!

O loves to play with this and it’s been really popular with his friends too!

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Roasted Eggplant, White Bean and Ditalini Soup

10 / 31 / 1312 / 17 / 13

Roasted Eggplant, White Bean and Ditalini Soup is hearty and warm and delicious, perfect for Fall!

If you ask me if I want soup in the summer, the answer is definitely NO. Thinking about soup when it’s warm out and the sun in shining, is just, ick, no thank you. But when it gets to be this time of year, I’m all soup all the time. I cannot get enough. It starts right around the first time it’s cool enough to need a jacket outside and lasts pretty much the entire winter. And then, a glimpse of spring and BAM! Back to salad!

I guess one of the other great things about soup is that it’s filling and lower in calories than some of the other things I cook. So even though it’s delicious, I don’t have to worry so much about it eating it. My favorite thing to do it turn one of our old standby meals into soup. I started with our favorite Roasted Eggplant Pasta, (if you haven’t tried it yet, yum!!!) and while delicious, one of the pitfalls of being vegetarian is the tendency to eat too many carbs, especially pasta. I wanted to capture the flavor but make it lighter, so I made it into a soup that still has some pasta but also some added protein. It turned out so well, I am sharing it with you!

A word about broth, stock and salt first. I usually don’t use store bought broth. I never remember to buy it and it’s often high in sodium anyway. And to me, vegetable broth often has pretty strong herb flavors that don’t always compliment what I’m trying to make. But if you’re a broth fan or have some you need to use up, by all means, substitute it for water! But make sure you leave out most of the salt in the recipe!! If you use water, like I do, add salt to taste. But be very careful if you substitute regular table salt for Kosher salt;1 tsp of regular salt would be MUCH saltier than 1 tsp of Kosher salt, they are not equivalent!

Roasted Eggplant, White Bean and Ditalini Soup

Ingredients:

1 medium eggplant

1 large onion

1 green pepper

4-5 cloves of garlic in their skins

1 14 oz. can of white beans (Cannellini, Great Northern etc.), drained and rinsed

1 cup small pasta like ditalini

4Tb tomato paste

1/2 tsp dried oregano

1/4 tsp thyme

The juice of 1/4 of a lemon

1 to 1 1/2 tsp of KOSHER salt

7 cups of water

1. Preheat your oven to 375 degrees. Wash your eggplant, cut off the stem and slice it in half the long way. Place cut side down on a cookie sheet greased with olive oil. Peel the onion, cut off the ends and slice into 1/2 inch slices. Wash your green pepper, cut it into large chunks and discard the seeds and middle. Lay the onion slices, the green pepper, and the garlic cloves (still in their skins) on the cookie sheet and spray the tops of everything with olive oil or cooking spray.

2. Roast until the Eggplant is very soft, the garlic cloves are soft and the onions and peppers are soft and caramelized around the edges, between 30-50 minutes. Things may finish at different times (especially the garlic) so watch carefully.

3. Scoop out the flesh of the Eggplant and run a knife through it until it’s basically mashed. Chop the onions, peppers and the peeled garlic into a small dice.

4. Add to a big soup pot with a little bit of Olive oil and the beans. I know…roasted eggplant is not the most gorgeous thing to look at. I promise it will look better at the end and taste delicious. Really.

5. Add the tomato paste and herbs and cook for a few minutes to caramelize the tomato.

6. Add the water and salt to taste and bring the soup to a boil. Reduce to simmer and let it cook for 15-20 minutes until the mashed eggplant has pretty much dissolved into the soup.

7. Bring the soup back up to a boil, add the pasta and cook just until the pasta is al dente. (6-9 minutes). I love Ditalini pasta for this soup, it’s the perfect size and shape!

8. Just before serving add the lemon juice and some fresh parsley if you have it. Serve hot with crusty bread! Yum!

DIY Little Cowboy Costume

10 / 29 / 1310 / 3 / 14

My Halloween Costume week continues with another flashback to my DIY Little Cowboy Costume! This time, it was O’s 3rd Halloween, he had just turned 2 and I didn’t know what he should be (and he was still too little to care). And then my aunts went to Arizona and came back with the cutest little cowboy boots of all time. I mean, they were really truly adorable! So I figured, well then of course he has to be a cowboy! When you get real life mini cowboy boots, you better show them off!

It was actually a really easy costume too. He already had a cowboy hat
floating around. I just glued a star made of craft foam to the front. He also had skinny jeans (toddler skinny jeans are like my favorite thing ever!) and a plaid shirt. So all I really needed to come up with was a Cowboy vest and a belt with a belt buckle.

To make those, I stopped in at my local Joann’s and found this fabric that kind of looks like leather, but is really some kind of coated cotton meaning it is cheaper and easy to work with. I couldn’t believe my luck! Would I use this kind of fabric for a home dec project or something that would get used a lot? Probably not. But it was PERFECT for this. I thought I would end up with some of that thick vinyl pleather, guess it was my lucky day!

The belt is just a long strip of fabric with d-rings on one end and I made the belt buckle slide over the belt with little loops. It’s just a rectangle of craft wood from my stash painted “gold” with a star on top. Super easy.

The vest was a little more complicated because I didn’t have a pattern and I’d never made a vest before but I just based it off a shirt he already had for the basic shapes, gave it a little bit bigger armholes, and it worked out great! And of course it has fringe on the front and back!

I love costumes like this because it was really adorable but required minimal effort, O was comfortable AND it still looked cute even when he put on his coat. It makes me so sad when someone has a cute costume and then it gets all covered up by a winter jacket!

The best part of the whole Halloween was that at this age, (barely 2) O was still kind of unintelligible a lot of the time, but when you asked him, “What does a cowboy say?” He always gave us an enthusiastic and beyond adorable, “YEE HAW!!!!”

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Newborn Baby Bunny Costume

10 / 28 / 1310 / 3 / 14

It’s Halloween week and I thought this week I would share some homemade costumes from years past. One of my favorite is definitely O’s very first Halloween when I made him a tiny and adorable Newborn Baby Bunny Costume! He was about 2 months old and I remember that making this costume was literally the first even remotely artistic thing I had done since he was born. I was exhausted (as parents of newborns are known to be) and I still wasn’t feeling ready to leave the house a lot. I thought about it way too much and decided I was going to make a Baby Bunny Costume out of only things I already had in the house! I remember making this in my bedroom on the floor while O was napping next to me, trying desperately to finish before he woke up. It was a truly Make it Work kind of project. Tim Gunn would have been proud!

The hands and body were easy. For the onesie, I cut an oval out of pink felt and stitched it to the front to be a cute little belly. Then I made an easy white yarn pom pom and stitched it to the back. O was still in the stage where we held him a lot,if you had a little one who spent a lot of time lying down in a swing or bouncy chair or something, the tail obviously wouldn’t be comfortable for them.

To make the little mittens, I just roughly traced the size of the hand out of felt, cut two of the same shape, sewed around three sides and turned them right side out. Then I added the little pink paw pads. They didn’t stay on that great and if I had had the time or the energy, I might have added some elastic. But you know what, for the three seconds that he was willing to keep them on, they looked cute enough!

To make the bunny ears, I remember i really struggled trying to figure out what to make them out of. I thought cardboard at first but that wouldn’t really hold it’s shape. I didn’t have pipe cleaners. I didn’t want to use wire because I was afraid it would poke his little head. And then, deep in sewing supplies I found some leftover plastic boning! It was perfect, it held a curve but wasn’t tight and didn’t have sharp ends! I covered it in felt, I think I made the ears out of boning too? And then stretched felt across those as well. And again I used a little felt flap with velcro under the chin instead of elastic because I was a nervous new mom! Elastic might strangle him! (Actually it might, I probably would still not use it) The strap was enough to keep the ears on but it was not at all tight under his chin.

Are you dying to see a Baby Bunny yet? Ok, don’t die of cuteness and then say I didn’t warn you!

Look! He has a little pink nose and a real carrot!!

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DIY Thomas the Train Inspired Halloween Costume

10 / 27 / 135 / 26 / 17

When I asked O what he wanted to be for Halloween this year, and once I explained the concept (I don’t think he remembers last year), the answer was a resounding “TRAIN!” And if you have or have had a preschooler, I’m sure you know that it was not just any train, it HAD to be similar to THOMAS the Train (otherwise known as Thomas the Tank Engine if you really want to be accurate). The kid looooves Thomas. I tried convincing him maybe we should think outside the box and go for Thomas’ trusty friend Percy maybe? Or Toby? But no, Thomas the Train is the fave. So Thomas the Train inspired costume it is!

(PSST! Get the Train Engineer Costume with overalls, hat and kerchief HERE!)

I knew I wanted Thomas to be 3D and I had some boxes sitting around so I figured that was the perfect place to start. I grabbed a few other things from Michaels, got a toy Thomas from the play basket for reference and got to work. I feel like I should say that of course, making vehicle costumes out of boxes is not my original idea. They’re all over the internet. Pinterest even has quite a few Thomas the Trains. But I wanted to share my method since I didn’t reference any other tutorials and just figured it out as I went along.

Here’s what you need:

Train Engineer Costume

Cardboard box (mine was 18″ x 12″ x 6″)

Lid of a slightly larger cardboard box ( I used a boot box)

Round paper mache box for face

2 4 inch round paper mache boxes (lids only) for the wheels.

Wood discs (for the eyes)

Paper mache (or make your own the usual way)

Spackle (optional)

I didn’t end up using those big wooden circles pictured above, instead a I used a couple 4 inch paper mache lidded boxes like the one in the middle.

My first step was a sketch to figure out the basic volume of my Thomas the Train inspired costume.

I pretty much approached this like building an architectural model, I drew it first and then tried to build it with the minimum possible number of seams and pieces. I cut out the bottom of the box and then measured and drew my cuts on the top flaps. I know it doesn’t make a lot of sense in this picture.

But once you cut out the middle and fold up the side flaps…

It kinda starts to look like a train, right? Next I added Thomas’ roof.

Cheesy “helper” recommended but not required…

After the roof, I added the piece across the front and started painting it.

Then I took that other boot box from the first picture and made the red platform that Thomas’ body sits on.

One thing I have learned over the years of painting furniture is that red paint is really frustrating. It takes many many coats to get even opaque coverage. A lot of Thomas’ markings are red lines and I could just see myself painting them over and over and over and still having blue show through. So I drew his markings in Illustrator and printed them out on cardstock instead. And then I carefully cut them out and glued them to his sides like decals. It worked out great and the lines are straight and even, much neater than I could have ever painted them!

Then it was time to figure out Thomas’ face. When I googled Thomas the Train Halloween Costumes, I mostly saw flat faces. And they were plenty cute and that was what I was planning to do because it’s easy. But then about halfway through I had the crazy thought to try making a 3D face. I mean, the 3D face is kind of what Thomas and his friends are known for, right? So I ran my 3D face scheme past my husband. And he said, “I don’t know…that sounds kind of ambitious.” Which to my ears, actually sounded like a challenge. And I can’t back down from a craft challenge. Plus I figured, if it didn’t work out, I could always go back to plan A!

So I started with one of these lidded paper mache boxes from the craft store.

I measured, marked and cut it to fit onto the front of Thomas’ body.

This last picture shows the lid of the box back on and that was going to be the base for Thomas’ face. After thinking for a bit, I decided paper mache sounded like my best bet. First I sketched Thomas’ face on the box lid, then I used crumpled and rolled paper covered in masking tape to sculpt his face. For most of these steps, he looks suuuuper creepy. Sorry! But, it’s Halloween so it’s cool, right? At this point I was going off my memory of the last time I did paper mache which might possibly have been making pinatas in middle school spanish class. I mixed half white glue with half water, tore up some strips of the Onion and got to work.

Once that dried, I tried painting it but it was way too bumpy and lumpy for my perfectionist tendencies. So that’s when I had my next crazy idea. I said to my husband, “What if I spackle him?” To which he replied, “I don’t know…” in a very skeptical tone of voice. If you haven’t noticed, when Aa thinks something sounds like it might be a crazy idea, I, of course, decide that it’s brilliant and it will work! We spackled all kinds of things in architecture school, I figured why not try it? Unfortunately, I only had half a little container of spackle that was about 80% dried out. Undeterred, I added some water and stirred. And stirred. And stirred. And hey! Guess what! You can reconstitute spackle! So Thomas got spackled…

Then I sanded and re-spackled and smoothed until he looked waaaaay better.

After some paint, it turned out I was right, the 3D face was awesome! And Aa was sufficiently amazed.

The next thing I tackled was his wheels. I used two of those round paper mache boxes in a smaller size and made six wheels from the tops and bottoms. I painted them blue and then decided they needed a little detail. Having just had so much success with the decals I used to put the lines on Thomas’ body, I drew out a sunburst shape on some thick magazine paper and cut them out.

Then I painted them black and glued them to the wheels!

After that I attached the wheels, made a funnel out of a toilet paper tube, added the bumpers and fashioned some straps from the handles of a reusable shopping bag (does everyone else have approximately 7,000 of those?!) And O’s Thomas the Train inspired costume was ready!

Of course O is dressed as the train engineer who drives Thomas! He wore this once already and it was a huuuuge hit! (And no I didn’t make the Engineer costume, I got it on Amazon. I’m not totally insane. 😉 And because I get asked, at 3 yrs old, O, who is pretty tall, fit comfortably into the 3T-4T size.

Choo! Choo!

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Last Minute Halloween Costume – Superman (aka SuperMom!)

10 / 25 / 139 / 18 / 14

So every year I say to myself, “Self, it’s fine, you don’t need a Halloween costume. The holiday is really just for the kids, who cares if you have one? You don’t really love dressing up anyway.” So I focus on O and have a lot of fun figuring out his, and then, without fail, at the last minute, I realize all my friends are dressing up and I get all worried about being a big party pooper. This year I knew we had both a Halloween parade and a Halloween party at O’s music school to go to where one set of parents were dressing up in full size Mickey & Minnie costumes, so I figured I could at least put a little effort into it.

I decided to be SuperMom (thank you Pinterest for providing me with a thousand good ideas!) because I already have most of the things you need for the costume, all I had to figure out was a superman shirt to go under my button up shirt. So I went to Target, the most magical place in the world. I headed to the men’s department because I thought I had seen a whole section of novelty tshirts up there and it turned out, Hallelujah! They had a superman shirt! Unfortunately it was $12.99 and they only had Men’s XL. As I am known to do, I said to myself, “Self, you can just make your own Superman shirt for less. Don’t spend $12.99 for a shirt that’s way too big and you’re going to have to cut up and sew to fit!” Then I turned around and there, a couple shelves over, were plain tshirts for only $6.99! And they happened to have perfect superman blue! I grabbed a Small and headed home to raid my craft closet. (Wish I had looked early enough to order this!)

I was hoping somewhere I had some red and yellow fabric but the best I could come up with was half a 9 x 12 sheet of red craft felt and even less yellow felt. But I made it work and guess what? It turned out cute!

To make my Superman logo, I first sketched it out on a piece of paper. If you can see the fold lines on the paper, I was too lazy to go get a ruler so this was my quick and easy way to make sure the shape I drew was symmetrical and even! It worked out perfectly!

Then I taped the paper to the felt and carefully cut it out with an exacto knife.

I had the red S shape then I just needed to figure out how to add the yellow.

If I had more yellow felt I would have just cut one big yellow shape and glued it behind the red. But I didn’t have enough. So I ended up using the cut out parts of my paper stencil to cut little yellow pieces that fit into the red like a puzzle. I don’t totally recommend this method because it was kind of a pain in the you know what. But it ended up working.

When I had all the yellow filled it, I flipped the Superman logo over and went over all the seams with some fabric glue. Make sure it dries clear!

When it was dry, I sewed it onto my tshirt with red thread and I was done!!

What do you think? Cute costume idea?

p.s. I NEVER wear my glasses in real life but obviously glasses are required for the costume, so this is like a once in a lifetime pic!

Happy Pumpkin Halloween Wall Hanging

10 / 24 / 1312 / 17 / 13

I think, when it comes to Halloween, people are in two camps of decorating. Scary (think tombstones and gory masks) and cute (smiling pumpkins, cute little witches). When I was a kid, inspired by the street in our town with the really amazing Halloween decorations, you know the kinds of houses that give out FULL SIZE candy bars, my best friend and I tried every year to create, what in our minds was our Halloween piece de resistance, a super spooky witch to decorate my parents’ front stoop. We painstakingly constructed her out of an old coat rack, a mask we painted green with poster paint and an old witch hat with stringy yarn hair. I think we probably gave her an old broom too. And we were 100% completely convinced she was the most terrifying thing ever. (fyi: she was not) It didn’t help that my parents live on a street that only has houses on one side so they hardly ever get any trick or treaters–our spooky witch barely even had a chance to scare anyone. But did we give up? No, every year we tried to make her as scary as we possibly could!

But now that I’m older and more mature (not) some of my fondest Halloween memories are of the happy Halloween decorations and activities we did in elementary school. I loved smiling jack o’ lanterns, cute black cats and friendly looking ghosts. And since O is still so little, I don’t really want him to get scared at Halloween yet either so I definitely tend to stay on the cute side of decorating. But, as you may or may not have learned yet, I am cheap and I like to make stuff! I either buy holiday decorations a couple of days after the holiday is over for next year (you can get such great deals this way!!) or I make them myself.

After picking out Halloween pumpkins with O, I got in the mood to add to our decoration stash and, shopping only in my craft closet, I made this cute little Happy Pumpkin Halloween Wall Hanging out of materials I already had on hand.

I used four little wooden craft squares, a little faux leather cord and some paint–voila! A cute Halloween pumpkin decoration for free!

Which one’s your favorite? I think mine is this guy:

Individual Apple Crisp with Honeyed Greek Yogurt and Salted Caramel Sauce

10 / 22 / 1312 / 17 / 13

So really, is there anything better than individual sized food? Really? I don’t think so. I bought these individual ramekins about a year ago with the intention of making little vegetarian pot pies. (have I actually done that? no, I have not.) But what I constantly use them for is dessert. Make an individual dessert and Aa is in total heaven. I posted about my Individual Blueberry Crumble, but the recipe really originally started as Apple Crisp and now that it’s apple season and we’re all totally overrun with apples, I thought I should share it.

Individul Apple Crisp

makes 2 individual crisps

1 large or 2 medium apples

Lemon

Cinnamon

3/4 c. of old fashioned oats
1/4 c. whole wheat flour
1/2 c. brown sugar
1/8 tsp of salt
4 Tb melted butter

Greek Yogurt mixed with honey

Salted Caramel Sauce

Preheat your oven to 350 degrees and wash your apples. Peeling is optional, slice your apples into 1/8 inch even slices.

In a bowl add a squeeze of lemon juice to your apples, add two pinches of Cinnamon and stir. I personally don’t like super sweet fruit dessert so I don’t add sugar to my apples but if you’re using a really tart apple like a Granny Smith you might want to.

Put the apple mixture in two small oven safe ramekins.

In another bowl, mix the oats, flour, salt, brown sugar and another pinch of cinnamon together and add the melted butter.

Mix the butter into the dry ingredients until combined and it forms large clumps. This is way easier with your hands.

Divide the crumble topping in half and cover the apple mixture. Bake at 350 degrees for about 30 minutes until the apples are soft and bubbling and the top is starting to brown. Let it cool until you can handle the ramekins.

I topped mine with a dollop of Greek yogurt sweetened with honey and a drizzle of the most amazing sauce ever made, Trader Jacque’s Fleur de Sel Caramel Sauce (or in regular English, Trader Joe’s Salted Caramel Sauce). Get some. Really. It’s amazing.

Individual Apple Crisp Recipe with Honeyed Greek Yogurt and Salted Caramel Sauce, a easy and really delicious way to use up all those extra apples! on Little Red Window

Yum!!!